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2011-04-09T03:12:00.001+08:00

im dead here but my tumblr's alive.

god knows why.

attempt to study #432432409049

2011-02-28T10:59:00.002+08:00

this space is dying.

and sooo..... last paper tomorrow @ 2.30pm \m/. then im really done with ngee ann. its 11am now i was up since 8am -_- god knows why. wished b all the best for his paper and I JUST LOST 2K IN TEXAS POKER FML.

honestly, i dont know what the hell this post is for... just for the sake of blogging.
p.s. im so hungry i suspect im gon starve to death in...... 30 mins.

mehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i will follow you into the dark

2011-02-27T01:16:00.002+08:00

baby

2011-02-25T23:42:00.002+08:00

thank you for loving me. even when i look my worst.

stress reliever, maximum

2011-02-24T19:55:00.001+08:00

waiting for pink to hold a concert in SG

2011-02-23T00:10:00.000+08:00

btw, dope is noel. got balls to @ the real pink.

my boyfriend.....

2011-02-21T18:03:00.001+08:00

hahahahahahahahahahaahahha cheap thrill.
he didnt know i was taking video hahahahaah.

random saturday night

2011-02-20T03:29:00.006+08:00

AND IM AT HOME......

whutttzzz?

anyways i just did 1 full chapt and 2 half chapters of MEB (paper's on 1st of march) while playing poker and viwawa's mahjong with my no-life mates (gw, noel, luq, bryan). and i realised, we have no life. year 3 life is freaking mundane. we've been eating and slacking and eating and slacking and it goes on.

we need some life. esp some clubbing life *looks at noel and bryan.

meh. been looking back at my life and thinking... whats with me meeting all those jerks? people always say im always falling for bad boys a.k.a flirts because they use the best tactics and all those sweet nothings... #fail. in return i got my heart broken over and over again.

and so finally one day this random dude said 'i dont understand what you liked in eugene'... CLICK HERE FOR MY ANSWER. here you go, if youre ever curious. and smile if you want to. im expecting a few 'smile's, hahaha. ive been hearing things about eugene STILL and it bothers me coz #1 i dont care, #2 hes still spreading things about me (from what i heard) #3 hes very proud of the things hes been spreading, true or false.

i. dont. understand. youre fucking hitting 21 this year for god's sake.

alright i need to calm down.

i witnessed a break-up recently and it scares me coz i really dont wanna go through the whole 'break-up period' again. i swear im so sick of it. my record was that i cried for two-three months (yeah every single fucking day) regardless whether i bathe, eat or sleep. i cried till my tear ducts gave up on me.

and i believe bryan will not let me down.

tested and proven: bryan doesnt look at girls (it scares me coz i look at girls more than he does), he asks me for permission before going out with his friends (male friends btw) which i dont understand..... il reply 'WHY ASK ME?' i wouldnt say no.... even if hes going out with a female friend.

if hes gon let me down well ive my retards who will stand-by me with a chopper, ever ready to chop off bryan's ___ (i shall let you fill in the blank).

speaking of which, im gon graduate in 8 days' time (provided if i dont fail WBA coz that paper really screwed me up). how time flies. i remember sitting beside luqman during year 1 business statistics class.... and i remember failing that module for common test -_________-. i remember how we slowly got together as a clique (retards) and how i noticed bryan sitting at a random spot in class looking cute... and unfriendly. i remember how gw spilled water on my face during BAOC (before poly days even started) and i hated him for it- but hes my best friend now. i remember laughing at gw, bob and luqman and other people with noel. i dont really wanna graduate, i dont wanna drift away from them and i wanna hang out with em in school. even if we're all gon eat and slack and waste our lives away. at the very least i have their company.

they say you'll find your bestest friends in secondary school (fuck that so-called fact) i found mine in poly. not only that, i found the one for me :)

p.s. im sorry for all the damn words. must have bored you to death.

hiatus... maybe.

2011-02-19T21:19:00.001+08:00

exams

maroon 5 craze

2011-02-17T20:40:00.004+08:00

i got myself a job ;)

2011-02-17T19:04:00.002+08:00

fuck yeah end of FYP

2011-02-16T23:19:00.004+08:00

'well done' was all i needed to hear from the tutors.

but as for now, im stuck with WBA. ive 1 day left to cover all 5 chapters.
my life is fucked.

sogirls' CNY celebration (continued III)

2011-02-16T01:04:00.000+08:00

hehehe mad love y'all girlies, xx.

'first and last girl to get roses for'

2011-02-15T02:36:00.000+08:00

spread the love

2011-02-14T03:11:00.004+08:00

Y U SO HOT?

2011-02-14T01:07:00.001+08:00

final year project (report)

2011-02-13T23:14:00.003+08:00

DUE IN.......... 47 MINS

cant wait for valentine's day celebration tmr.
we're going to sentosa's sakae teppanyaki!!!!!!

http://www.sakaeteppanyaki.com

as for now, am gon worry like a dumbfuck... stupid fyp.

sogirls' CNY celebration (continued II)

2011-02-13T23:00:00.002+08:00

once againnnnn...

first picture: family portrait of sogurt :) *with a few girls missing.
second picture: bukit timah outlet girls!
third and fourth picture: sabrina chelsea and my group photoshoot ^^
fourth picture: polaroids!

sogirls' CNY celebration (continued)

2011-02-12T23:34:00.000+08:00

pixxxxxxxxxxx

love y'all sogirls xoxoxoxo :)

gon head out to meet b for a while now..... im so tired i swear im gon die anytime.

we got punked :)

2011-02-12T22:37:00.007+08:00

TODAY:

woke up at b's at 2pm
went home to bathe and prepare
took a train down to bugis to look for noel

WHAT NOEL AND I DID:

had duck rice for brunch (one and only meal)
walked around frantically to search for presents
walked to bras basah
walked back to iluma
walked back to bugis junction
walked to plaza singapura _|_
walked around frantically to search for presents ROUND 2
got his present done at PS
decided to abort plan of engraving guitar picks for b (initial plan)
because NO ONE COULD ENGRAVE ON PLASTIC
panicked
sat at 'made with love', brainstormed
thought of an idea, get a corkboard and decorate it with pictures and other stuff
went to PS' daiso, spotlight, carrefour
corkboards at PS' daiso ran out of stock
called IMM's daiso to enquire if there's any stock
they said yes, there is
took a train down to IMM
fucking big field under renovation
due to time constraint we had to run there (circumference of the field)
and we ran a fucking long distance i promise you
finally got to IMM
went to daiso
salesperson said "oh, corkboards are out of stock"
noel and i starred at each other with big eyes

THE END :)

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so in other words, i took today off projects to look for presents- i managed to get b's bday present. HOWEVER AS FOR VALENTINE'S DAY PRESENT.... i swear, i havent felt so helpless in a long time. helpless + stressed. noel and i travelled around half of singapore to look for presents but to no avail.

noel: write a book about what happened today and give bryan.

yeah i probably should do that............

F. M. L.

but thxxx bff noel lim youre the best :) thxxxx for following me around and even to IMM to look for the freaking corkboards...... jokes inbetween like turbo and violent gold digger + jersey shore dude in the train + dick-pouch (pick-pouch) + encrave + cock-boards...........................

first tough week over, two more weeks to go

2011-02-11T12:02:00.000+08:00

god damn it, im seriously suffocating from the huge stack of work thats given from the start of this freaking semester. WHATS MORE there're exams........... wtf how are we supposed to complete IIP (final project, consists of 50 fucking percent) and do well for exams at the same time?

-__________________________- dumbfuckzzzzz

anyways im in MIS lecture right now and i shouldnt be here coz this lecture is literally useless..... and im thinking of food.

cant wait for retards to come over for din + stay overnight later on :)

sogirls' CNY celebration

2011-02-11T00:43:00.001+08:00

ONLY GOT TWO PICTURES IN HAND RIGHT NOW...

my face like quite fail............
gon wait for the rest of em to upload photos! :)

fav sogirls: chelsea, rachel, sabrina, caroline, amanda, agnes. xo.

till then.

tears of joy..... not

2011-02-10T16:01:00.002+08:00

today's the first day and time I've ever, cried because of my grades.

il tell you why.

bcomm grades are extremely important to me- coz it's the only module I'm capable of scoring well and the only module I can possibly score an A for it. furthermore, after getting an A for both my interview and data-gathering call.... I had to face a B- earlier for sales call.

very, very, depressing.

b was outside when I came outta the interview room and I was trembling, before and after the sales call. I was so nervous I forgot my lines, I forgot the process and I forgot to say most of my lines which apparently I spent almost my whole evening preparing.

he told me, 'you're not ready'.

and I agree, but when he said 'you did not put in enough effort'. that sentence screwed me up because I did as much as I could already. just because I was too nervous and I couldn't speak properly, I couldn't counter back.

and so like a fucking weakling I sat down beside b and starting sobbing. but I'm okay now, it's a B-. considering my nervousness earlier on I could've gotten a C.

meh.

baby please play this for me ):

2011-02-09T21:42:00.003+08:00

.

as for now... im fucking stressed due to tmr's solution selling call.

30% of bcomm grade.... FML.

p.s. on the right side of the picture beside my laptop.....
hi b with short hair hahahahahahaha.

arcade fire (im very much in love with em)

2011-02-09T08:22:00.005+08:00

Businessmen drink my blood
Like the kids in art school said they would
And I guess I'll just begin again
You say can we still be friends

If I was scared, I would
And if I was bored, you know I would
And if I was yours, but I'm not

All the kids have always known
That the emperor wears no clothes
But to bow to down to them anyway
Is better than to be alone

If I was scared, I would
And if I was bored, you know I would
And if I was yours, but I'm not

Now you're knocking at my door
Saying please come out with us tonight
But I would rather be alone
Than pretend I feel alright

If the businessmen drink my blood
Like the kids in art school said they would
Then I guess I'll just begin again
You say can we still be friends

If I was scared, I would
And if I was pure, you know I would
And if I was yours, but I'm not

Now I'm Ready to Start

If I was scared, I would
And if I was pure, you know I would
And if I was yours, but I'm not

Now I'm Ready to Start

Now I'm Ready to Start
I would rather be wrong
Than live in the shadows of your song
My mind is open wide
And now I'm ready to start

Now I'm Ready to Start
My mind is open wide
Now I'm Ready to Start
Not sure you'll open the door
To step out into the dark
Now I'm ready!

lazy tuesday

2011-02-08T20:52:00.000+08:00

im supposed to be awake at 7.30am today. my alarm was set to ring at 7.30pm.

fml.

apparently b's text woke me up at 8.30am and i realized, even if i cab to school il be late anyways so why bother? AND worse still its a one hour lesson...... whats the point..... :/

then...... i fell back asleep. hahaahha im a pig. till b's call woke me up, i fell back asleep, his second call woke me up again and it went on and on.

we had EAT for lunch ^^ fishball noodles! > ACER to collect laptop > IMM to get eggtarts.

we settled down in his house (i had to go through powerpoint slides of sales call and combine/edit photos for IIP project). k im done, i just summarized my day... which explains the title of this post.

right now im STILL in b's, with a guitar lying on the floor, a macbook on my left and his phone (with three missed calls, which i dared not pick up, especially the last missed call).

its plain awkward.

anyhowwwww ive a bad hair day today ):

hahahhahahahahaha LAST PICTURE!!! nice face la bryan bay.

heres more.

and here's b playing the guitar! :)

he played one last breath :| my favvvv song of all time (y)

2 months, no kidding

2011-02-07T22:29:00.007+08:00

and we are already so close.

anywayzzz here are more genting photos in b's cam...........
my genting post's in tumblr.... weh. im too damn lazy to search for the URL.

i love this picture hahahahaha. caption: my lesbian partner and i.

here's my gangsta boyfriend for you :)

eh btw the friggin top is mine ok...... (top right picture)
thx for expanding my top b ^^ appreciate it.

i remember someone (i cant remember who, exactly) asked me which part of bryan attracts me the most. i answered his facial features, and..... his tattoo.

hahahahahahaha. oh well.

and here's new year's pixxxx (01/01/2011)

:) extremely blessed to have you around, b.

what made me laugh till i almost died

2011-02-07T15:22:00.001+08:00

AND SO I WAS INNOCENTLY TAGGING PHOTOS IN FACEBOOK UNTIL.......

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA WHAT THE FUCK NICE ONE GW.

one last lap

2011-02-07T14:07:00.005+08:00

.....only for business communications ):

WHATEVAAA INTERVIEW'S FUCKING OVERRRR! right before the interview (when benjamin's inside the classroom) my palms were sweating and i was literally trembling outside the bloody classroom (i really wanted to die on the spot) BUT hehehehehehehehehe im happy with my grade and im done with data gathering and interview.. im left with sales call (thurs) :|

ive so many things to do and ive so little time.

anywayz after interview earlier i went over to sogurt to collect my stuff (forever 21 and supre) from brenda tan and heres a freakingly pretty necklace heh heh but ive this feeling noel will laugh at me... i dont know why, hes ALWAYS laughing at my necklaces ): is it really that bad?

and i realized something's wrong with my webcam. the colours of the picture are a lot darker and... the colours pretty much suck? i dont know, it changes from time to time. look at this:

either something's really wrong with my webcam, or it just doesnt like my face.

....ugh im finding excuses to get a macbook pro. plzzz i want a macbook pro daddyyyy ): if i were to save up 1.7k myself im gon take AGES, considering the amount of money i spend on shopping (alone), excluding food and transport............ sighhhhh need to stop being a spendthrift.

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mehhhh. waiting for b to be done with his presentation and for him to come over (i bought a tub for sogurt froyo for him, with quite a bit of strawberry flavour!!!) seriously, just look at the fucked up weather. froyo's good ^^

on a random note, i found this picture somewhere in my folders....

yucks whats with my hair back then? ANYWAYS....
i wish i knew how to play a guitar. its my fav instrument ):

chinese new year eve's eve (continued)

2011-02-07T01:48:00.000+08:00

heres the complete group photo ^^

and other incomplete ones....

what you want la bbbbbb hahaha :)

i never really liked nicki minaj until...

2011-02-06T22:19:00.003+08:00

and so from this moment on... i love nicki minaj :)

chinese new year is a boring piece of shit

2011-02-05T15:18:00.002+08:00

this year's chinese new year's plain boring. didnt do ANY visiting AT ALL other than yesterday (cny day 2) to my aunt's for some poker/mahjong/blackjack sessions.. and i brought bryan along! ^^ i asked mom and she said 'ask him to come la!' hahaha success :)

and so i was losing like shit until he came.... and played for me and won zi mo man tai for me!!!! hahaha thx b youre da best zi mo king. but anyhow i lost in blackjack ): its okay, its cny. after that b came over for dinz ^^ never thought il eat with my bf at home with my parents around, with them acknowledging he's my bf. freaking awesome. come to think of it, i like cny this year ^^ firstly im a brave girl now, secondly my family AND my extended family met bryan already :) naiseeee.

last night we (bob, bryan, noel, max and i) went over to gw's for mj (again). tagged-team with noel lim aik tat and we won $8 together, considering our disgusting luck at all times, its quite alright ^^ twin spirit!

kkkkk gon' go prepare nowwww its my turn to visit bryan's family and gon' head down to timbre with bob, wilson & co. with bbb! hehehe byes

love you bbbb maximum xx.

p.s. as im typing out this post im thinking of my business communications' interview and sales call, along with WBA paper on val's, IIP presentation two days after val's, and my WISP reflection which is due on mon :) i have an extremely nice life BUT it doesnt matter, 24 days to graduate so byez ngee ann poly in advance. must hang on must hang on must hang on.

texas poker

2011-02-04T00:25:00.005+08:00

with noel who apparently cleared his base for like 4-5 times already hahahaha. first two pictures of which noel has $0 base hahaha nice one twin :) you FTW seriously. all in somemore.

AND HE CLAIMED, 'im the poker king ok' hahahahaha can what bro lose base 4-5 times only, nothing much :) freaking funny hahaha.

(click to view bigger picture)

and this was what happened.... hahahahaha.

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for those who are curious, my parents met bryan already ^^ they're quite okay with him even tho they said he looks like a casanova (coz hes good-looking- thats what they said!!!!) and asked 'long hair nice meh?' how would i know right im asking him the same thing as well..... my cousin checked him out in facebook and told me he looks better in short hair (LIKE I ALWAYS SAY). bryan is an extremely stubborn kid i promise you. hahaha but i love him all the same xx :)

new year gone bad

2011-02-03T14:15:00.000+08:00

I CANT DO VISITING THIS YEAR DUE TO GRANDPOPZ'S DEATH LAST YEAR....

so right now im literally rotting at home doing nothing at all ):
y ma lyfe sho sad.....

anyways i did my nails last night at like...... 4am? k its not really 'night' but you get what i mean.

its the best ive ever done, diy manicure ftw ftw ftw but my toes are plain ugly so im not gon take a photo of them hahaha they're red.... lucky colour BUT SO WHAT? NO ONE'S GON LOOK AT MY NAILS ANYWAY SINCE IM STAYING AT HOME FOR THIS NEW YEAR....

god.

never knew someone like this existed....

2011-02-03T03:35:00.002+08:00

oh god he drove me to tears.

esp. 1:22 and 2:10 WHAT THE FUCK HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA

_l_!!!!!!!!!!!! freaking joke

eggtart's shih tzu says hi

2011-02-03T03:03:00.001+08:00

k i look like crap.......................

not my point. look at his doggy ^^ sho cutezzzz. noel named the dog 'carrot' and... apparently he has a rabbit, well-known retard i swear. really gon head to hougang to visit carrot hehehe too cute, worth the time taken to travel there.

heres more.

^^ carrot can sit there and laze around without barking and all. so lovable.

hi i have a jiao bin:

hahaha damn funny damn cuteeeee~

noel asked if i really like dogs. duh right wth why else would i choose noel to be my bff? what chiu talkin' bro? hahaha JK :)

i just got home not long ago, went to swirl art & starbucks @ orchard with bb :) then to his friend's for a few rounds of poker....... i feel energized again. weird body timing but whatevaaa, im gon 'shou ye' tonight (noel doesnt know wtf is that). they say if we stay up tonight our parents will live longer. not sure bout the degree of accuracy but whatever, il do anything for them to live longer (but sometimes my parents piss me off so bad i really have the mindset of moving out.)

but OH WELLS, love you mom and popz xx.

chinese new year eve's eve

2011-02-02T17:16:00.001+08:00

0 group photo coz they're all in charissa's camera.

heres whats in mine.. and here are my dogs:

and bbbb! ^^

and all the other fags, esp the first two pictures.

hahahaha winson that dog took my camera and took gw's photo with a freaking prawn wtf hahaha there are a hell lot more pictures taken by noel and b, all fascinated with gw and his pouches (inside joke) not gon be a bastard and upload all the stupid ugly photos of him o:) angel.

btw gw ate all of these hahahahaha leftovers.

and all thanks to the spicy soup last night my stomach felt damn uncomfortable even till now. after half an hour of that nonsense soup winson was already perspiring, b didnt even bother trying to eat something soaked in that soup, noel was constantly asking for cold barley...... i dont know man, we're just weak.

here's half the group :/

OK will upload the rest soon ^^

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random pictures:

always learn from the best.

b's puppy hehehe sho QT pie :)

AND MY LAPTOP SLEEVE IS FINALLY HERE!!! along with supre third batch (hehehe i really SHOULD stop shopping) but supre's S is way too big for me ): gon alter some parts of the dresses... meh.

alright gon eat dinner now im starving like mad ):< happy cny's eve once again xxxxx.

P.S. IM BRINGING BRYAN HOME TMR omfg i made it :)

62 days of bliss

2011-02-01T00:47:00.005+08:00

happy 2nd, baby boyyyy (insert many many heart shapes)

it feels like we've been together for years and the months dont even matter anymore.

first boyfriend ive ever been overseas with, first boyfriend im really gon' try to bring home to show my parents.... need some courage and balls to do so. god bless.

youre da best bbbbb ive nothing more to ask for OTHER THAN......
can you please cut your hair? damnit ):<

im not asking for too much, at least a bit shorter.. like:

^^ pretty pleaseee?

hmm hehehe cant wait for later on. gon' head to town for nails and steamboat for dinnnn! (chinese new year celebration) with retards + many others @ holland's crystal jade :) and imma bring my camera (finally!) ^^

AND its february, already!?

love you bryan xx (and dont die on me like you did in my damn dream)

douchebag lim aik tat

2011-01-31T23:42:00.000+08:00

noel: we are young, eat like free, slack till late, got our tiles, got our friends, got the night, lets mahjong

cheerleading turns into gossipleading

2011-01-31T22:06:00.004+08:00

today's a bad day.

i woke up to a rainy day
went to school for > 2 hours
screwed up WISP presentation
RAIN DIDNT STOP...............
found out about hardwarezone shit
my blue lenses tore in my friggin right eye

(5) speaking of which, selvam gave me a URL regarding a forum on magnum force cheerleading..... which ERM, HOW IS THAT RELATED TO ME? forum talked about eugene and i- mostly me. and some magnum girls... some sexual stuff. 'iamnogod', i swear if any of the members in magnum finds out your identity you're gon' be so dead. bummer.

some people really should get a life.

anyways, its a cold and wet day today. DIDNT GET TO DO MY NAILS.... thats like (7) already ):< instead i went over to b's and we both slept like pigs till like 5 odd? i had a horrible nightmare, dreamt of losing him (8) and i woke up crying hahaha such an embarrassment.

b accompanied me for dinner @ rocky's pizza ^^ and we took a stroll home. so sweetzzzz. well at least my day wasnt THAT bad. it would be, without fatboui91 hehehehe.

love you b :)

BTW.........

gw's blog. can what this boy, after soon-to-be-a-year and still nothing.
talk about 'will update asap'.....

pink f.t.w

2011-01-31T02:51:00.003+08:00

noel lim aik tat and my fav :)

last fine day of january

2011-01-31T01:11:00.006+08:00

this shall be a blog for ranting ^^

too bored and too much time to waste. im gon' keep doing this, deleting and recreating a blog but whatever it is im sure everyone knows why i decided to close down my previous blog.

its full of E and its fucking ugly. funny thing is people are STILL revolving around topics bout' E- its not that i care but i mean seriously.... give it a break- hes a jerk, i know, everyone knows, stop reminding me in formspring.

meh.

reason why im blogging AGAIN is.... no reason actually. but honestly i think a blog without pictures is considered a dead-blog, and no one bothers to read it because its too boring and too wordy. i know we all like seeing pictures but im too lazy to take any with or without friends.... we're all getting old. not exactly old but i mean, 20? thats like about 1/4 of your life already.

anywayzzz its the last day of january. WTF time files. its 2011.... :/

my life was full of shit in 2010. full of nonsense. played a fool and i wasnt serious bout relationships and affairs of the heart. got stabbed in the back several times (and some go around telling people they hate fake people. oooh tell me about it) and i finally realised, they aren't friends who are worth keeping. retards i love you guyz maximum :) AND i spent too much time wondering why E left and trying to change myself for the better to fit him. i was a dumb fuck but now im wise enough to think straight and i found a boy 10 times better. not 10 actually, its called... infinity times better.

a boy who'd sacrifice sleep for me. who'd stay up all night to talk to me. who'd do anything (even if its stupid) with me. who'd tell the world bout' us having a cute daughter with big eyes and bangs even tho it was a just a dream (he was actually damn happy about it) and ETC plz.

bryan bay you're the best.

enuff said.